Thursday, 7 July 2016
My birthday has totally crept up on me this year. I usually get so excited about it and I love that my birthday is always an excuse for a summer BBQ and get together with all the family but this year, I've hardly thought about it.
I've had a whirlwind few weeks with finishing work and my year abroad, seeing Coldplay, flying back to England, catching up with Tom's family, Ed's graduation and finally getting the train back last night.
I love my birthday but I hate getting older. I know anyone older than me reading this will probably be like "you're 21, you're not even old", but time is going SO quickly and I'm really happy with where my life is now. This time next year, I will have finished university and be out there in the real world.
Though I had a perfect childhood, I never really enjoyed the teenage years of my life. I struggled a lot and among other personal things, I had a toxic group of friends and certain people (both students and teachers) made me dread going to school. I didn't have the best attendance even though I loved learning. I still love learning and I don't feel like I'm ready to stop studying next year.
I've learned a lot in the last few years, not just because of my degree, but about myself too. I used to be painfully shy and so insecure, not being who I truly was and worrying more about whether I was fitting in. Now I feel much more comfortable with who I am. I'm learning so much about myself, what my passions are, my weaker things I need to work on, what I excel in, who are good friends for me and I love all that.
There's something about birthdays that makes you all reflective, remembering where you were on your birthdays and what stage of your life you were at then. I've come a long way, I know that, and I know I've still got further to go.
To anyone who struggles in high school, particularly with the social side and confidence, trust me, it gets better.
I love my life at the moment. I'm happy, I've got an amazing relationship, friends, I'm going travelling in a few days and I've just spent almost a whole year abroad, I'm looking forward to starting my final year of university and the hard work I've put into building my blog is paying off. But as good as it is right now, I don't want this to be the peak of my life. I worked so hard to get to where I am now, and I'm so ambitious that I'm not stopping here.
Goals are set to be reached, and once we reach them, we set more.
These 21 years of my life have had ups and downs, but I'm so content. I'm proud of what I've achieved and I can't wait to achieve more. Here's to the next 21 years!